It is 
and I am writing at 2:00 am because I can’t sleep. I am sure this will be my most real post, ever. But that is ok. That is what this is about. Writing your heart for 5 min. straight and stripping off the coverings that keep us veiled from the ones who need to see us.
The word today is Glue.
Go.
My daughter has lived a life that has not often held days of immense joy. She has endured the tests, the questions, the pronouncements, and the pain of a chronic health issue for 18 years, her whole life. Each day she greets me with smile and a hug. The strongest most heart-felt hug I recieve all day long, and there are times I am too busy to feel it. I have so much to do that I don’t stop and bask in the love she is sharing.
There was a time she didn’t do that. There was a time she was so lost in the world of medication
that she rarely lived at all. And I forget.
And today as she endures one more disappointment I see the strong and resilient woman she has become. One
more seizure that shakes up the day, messes with plans, and steals the hope away. I envy her strength as mine spills out with tears and prayer for God to bring healing. I see her passion to live and be exactly who He has made her to be and I am humbled by the way she already knows who she is. I feel her heart beat and I long to wrap my arms around this woman-child of mine and tell her everything is ok when my heart wants to break…and she comforts me as I fail to be the encourager she needs.
But then I look at her once more and I see His hand, feel His presence, know His touch, and hear His heart. HOPE is bound in the promise that He never once leaves us nor forsakes us.
Today is a day of quiet solitude as we remember the pain Jesus went through for our reconciliation to God. Today as I watch my daughter’s pain and trials, I see His life bound in hers. Her faith has drawn me to the CROSS daily. Her love has mended a shattered heart as she quietly reveals God’s love in her life. Her faith has been a beacon for many to see His faithfulness. Her life is a reminder that God is always good.. All the time.. even in the hard times…HE IS ALWAYS Good.
She is the GLUE that has sealed up the edges of faith’s envelope.
Stop.
Only in Christ,
~Dawn
Wow, this is so very beautiful! I actually wrote my FMF post for today before reading this, and am struck by how you have voiced such a similar idea with so much more experience and lived-truth.
Thank you for sharing so honestly such beautiful words.
Thanks for visiting, Claire. Your thougts on motherhood are timeless..we all feel that way. I remember wondering how I would do this thing called ‘being a Mom’ and even though it wan’t like planned, I trust I am right in the middle of His plan.
So glad you stopped!
Blessings,
Dawn.
Dawn, Thank you for your realness. Your daughter sounds like she has a beautiful spirit. I am stirred by her young years of having to endure so much pain, yet still be such a blessing. Stay courageous, God will provide everything you need! I will be praying for ya’ll. Hope we can connect more. My face book page is Life Bubbling Over! It is a community of encouragement. Stop by. Many Blessings!…<…Cathy
Thank you, Cathy. I peeked at your site on FB..Lovely! I look forward to connecting. Thank you for praying!
Bless you,
Dawn
Love your transparency. It is beautiful. I love how your daughter has become your comforter even in the midst of her pain. What a testimony of faith on her part and a testimony of great parenting on your part. Saying a prayer for her and your family.
Blessings!
Cindy
Thank You Cindy! It has always blessed me how she is the one who reminds me that it is really ok. I appreciate your encouragement, though in true transparency I must say that anything truly good in her, or myself, comes from God alone. Over and over I am sure that He is faithful and never leaves our side, no matter what we walk through. His faithfulness overwhelms me. And even today, when I think of His great sacrifice, He was faithful unto death.
Thanks for your prayers!
Blessings,
Dawn