Mercy and truth meet together, intimately connecting close, weaving together peace and righteousness which produces a direction for us to walk in. It is a place of grace. It is a place of hope. It is a place where failure doesn’t seem to fit.
Mercy and loving-kindness and truth have met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other. – Psalm85:10
These words have become a breath prayer of hope for me, a combat plan against the tide that threatens to swallow me when I let myself see failure as the winner in these battles we contend in. This verse is a prayer for mercy. A plea for salvation from the failure of walking in the folly of our own choosing. It is a petition of desperation and remembrance. Unfortunately, it is a space I have known well on the journey. There was a time the idea of failing would conjure feelings of deep regret or fear because, fear and failure seem to pair themselves together a lot. Like tactics of the enemy, who reminds us of our shortcomings routinely, I saw failure as a stamp of disapproval in my lie.L
Although failure is a large part of our life experiences, I’d like to think that the repetition allowed me to learn how to fail gracefully, but it didn’t. Failure and grace didn’t always seem to be a part of the same equation for me.
We each seem to process failure in a different way; our emotional triggers are uniquely individual when it comes to how lack of success affects us. Likewise, we probably all have areas that we tend to react rather than respond…those things that are close to your heart, where you invest yourself. I can tell you that my failure rate feels paramount in those places where my sensitivity is high. When my role as wife and mother are on display, and I bomb, it can be devastating, because they are such personal pieces of my identity.
When what ‘should be’ and what ‘actually happens’ collide and implode…it is easy to fall into the cycle of regret. It is hard to see grace in those places.
After years of learning to release and repent and let go…and finally starting to understand the freedom we have in this sanctifying power of His saving grace, I can say that regret is not something that I think the Lord calls us to dwell in. In fact, He urges us to come and lay down the burdens and sorrows. He reminds us to dwell deep in the goodness of His love and His grace. He rebuilds us through the redeeming work that was completed on the Cross… where mercy and truth met and kissed and consumed the broken to cure and heal and restore.
Our Failure + His Mercy= Saving Grace in Action
I didn’t always understand the beauty of letting grace fill up my failures and lead me through repentance into the redemptive compassion of God’s mercy when we fall. Charles Dickens, in his eloquence, captures the feeling so well by pointing out the negativity of regret and failure.
” It was a long and gloomy night that gathered on me, haunted by the ghosts of many hopes, of many dear remembrances, many errors, many unavailing sorrows and regrets.”
All too often, the well that I found myself wading in was one of my own making. Unrealized hopes, unrealistic expectations, unreal goals which often materialized into some sort of self-produced failure that if I could have, should have, or would have done whatever… perhaps wouldn’t have happened.
But when a truth teller spoke clear into the depth of my heart, reminding me of the pride of my self-inflicting accusatory living that seemed to invade the words I spoke more regularly than I should, I realized how unfaithful I was acting.
Faithlessness and guilt became a common ailment when I let failure rob me of grace in my less than lovely moments. And I sometimes wondered if God was for me in those low places. Even though I knew different.
Even though I knew, that I knew, that I knew what the Word of God said about His faithfulness and compassion and trustworthiness and love and mercy and hope.
Because HE CAN take what the devil intends for bad, even our biggest mistakes, and turn them for our good and His glory.
The times when I found myself letting failure win were the days when I was walking in my own grace… my own abilities. I wanted a different outcome, I wanted a different answer to my predicament, and I wanted to navigate the result because I thought I knew what was best.
Sometimes my words get before His grace and it is not pretty. Sometimes I respond without thinking and I act before I put on Jesus. The reality is that I am not enough for the kids God has given me to love and raise and to train and to teach, or my husband as a very imperfect wife, or family and friends as a fallible human being.
Yet, when I am not enough there is a chance to see how He is exactly what is needed. They see Him in my failure because grace leads us to the throne of God to obtain mercy when we need it. (Heb 4:16) His Grace meets us in our lack and in our failures and it covers the loss with hope.It is the mercy that stems from compassion that which consumes our lives when we let it.
Grace is the faithfulness of God that meets us and spills over into our mistakes and our regrets and paints them bright red because He doesn’t expect perfection. He is completing us… we have no need to look back over the missed steps with pain of regret when we have the road ahead paved by grace of repentance.
It is because of the LORD’s mercy and loving-kindness that we are not consumed, because His tender compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great and abundant is His faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23
Falling is something we can expect because we are imperfect. In fact, the more I learn about His grace, the more I see that our failures are also a piece of His mercies in our lives. It is chance to experience hope in a different dimension, a powerful place of exchanging perspective with the Father… of nailing the broken to the Cross and taking on the form of the redeemed instead of the hopeless.
The more I fall into His grace when I fail, the faster I learn to get up. The more I realize the power of repenting and letting go when I miss the mark, the easier it is choose the Way of Grace. The more I experience the power of His restoring love, the sooner I give in to counting grace in all things.
“Rejoice not against me, O my enemy! When I fall, I shall arise: when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light to me.” Micah 7:8
Too many times when we fail or we falter or we just don’t get it right, we allow ourselves to be beaten and bruised by an enemy whose tactic is to steal, kill and destroy. He finds any advantage he can hold over us and our mistakes to keep us stuck in a war that we were never asked to fight.
- It isn’t the fact that we fall… we are going to do that.
- It isn’t the reality that we sin… we are prone to depravity.
- It isn’t that we have missed the mark… we are still a work in progress.
Failure only holds us down if never choose to get up again and keep going… And that is where we can see the grace of failure.
When failure no longer becomes a stigma of loss of hope and future goals, it instead becomes the foundational lesson which can rebuild our broken moments into grace moments.
O you afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold I will set your stones with fair colors and lay your foundations with sapphires. And I will make your windows of agates, and your gates of carbuncles, and all your borders of stones…. In righteousness you shall be established and you shall be far from oppression; for you shall not fear… Isaiah 54:11,12,14
I am learning to see how he builds us when we fall. He sets us strong on the foundation of grace shadowed by the Cross. I can see where He is teaching us to echo praise and count graces in the hard lessons and difficult times. When failure knocks on our door, we can rest secure in His faithfulness, because He patiently waits for us to let him build us up on the cornerstone of hope mixed with the mortar of faith and the stability of mercy.
Where have you been able to count grace moments in failure?
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